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Sad Girls For Life 2004-01-16 - 1:34 a.m. Are you ever shocked at how long your engineering analysis homework manages to take? I got to the point of being snappy when John explained that I was wrong on one of the problems. I hate frustration. I hate failure. I need to be less stressed about school than I currently am. When I finally finished the homework, my relaxation was to make a flyer for NOWAR. It actually was kind of relaxing, I guess. I need to find more ways to express myself. I was just writing about my sense of impending doom. Then I erased it because I don't think I really feel that way right now. I wouldn't say that everything is going to be ok. That doesn't mean anything. It means that I don't have anything more comforting to say. And I hate that. I need to be able to provide comfort to people, especially myself. I need to be able to be myself and encompass my own idea of what it is to be. But what am I doing with this? Where am I going with this? I have this feeling that I am devoting my life to confusion and cognitive dissonance. I need to have certainty, but if I did I would probably question my motives. "All a man can build is his vision, and I love my man for trying." my last 5 entries:
2008-01-12: In Sadding Around
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